Monday, September 24, 2007
Personal Report Card Preliminary Examinations 2007
Subject: Grade:
English Language B4
Combine Humanities Subject C6
Chinese Language A1
Physics C6
Chemistry E8
Additional Mathematics D7
Elementary Mathematics A1
Principle of Accounts: C6
L1R5:24
L1R4:18
L1B4:12
Looking at these grades makes me feel suicidal.My pathetic L1R5 can hardly get me anywhere,not even SRJC.This is such an utter disgrace to a mugger.I am like totally disappointed in the results of all my subjects.Gotta work so much harder for my O's for Saint Andrew's or my Ngee Ann Mass Comms.Gotta face the fact that i suck at A math and Chemistry.I gotta work into every nuance to improve my under performing grades.GO GO GO!!!
You are my life
11:58 PM
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Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Pure Sadness.What i guessed came true again.My hard work didn't pay off.Perhaps there is something wrong with my study techniques.Perhaps I did not go deep enough into the topics.Its time to REBOOT REFRESH REVISE!The 3Rs to my new studying regime.Been doing an amath paper and one of other subject everyday,Really hope that this works.
I gotta start using what our dear Ms Radha had taught us.To make positive affirmations."I am strong in every subject,i had done sufficient revision and I will score my 8 points"This obviously have to be accompanied by hard work.
Man...this prelims really ruined my god damn future.I don't think that i will possibly gonna make it into any of the colleges for the first 3 months.GOTTA SERIOUSLY TRY MY BEST AND PUSH MYSELF!!!GO GO GO!!!
My 2 A1s will not help as it was pulled down by my humanities and POA.2C6s.Life seriously sucks.
You are my life
10:07 PM
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The world is filled with the deepest darkest secrets.It is formed initially by people hiding theirs sins,and eventually it became a part of their lives.Thus,secrets are the sacred ways of managing and keeping things to their self,not willing to share upon these key information with.This lead to insecurity of the people,often leading to many unforseen circumstances formed.Thus,Secret Keepers arose to help those who are in distress.Secret Keepers could be a close pal,a pet,or even a non-living thing.The purpose of Secret Keepers is meant to be a listener,to allow the person to feel much better ,not feeling something stuck deep inside.They are the ones who help people feel a sense of freedom,like a huge weight being lifted off their shoulders.
I believe everyone have their own secret keepers and i am personally no different.However,secrets are not the worst items that brings bout the structuring of SINS!SCANDALS ARE.
Referring to Answers.com,it is a publicized incident that brings about disgrace or offends the moral sensibilities of society.This simply means that a pact of lies is made up to bring about unethical social reactions that is affecting the victim directly.Its a shame to the person,bringing him into a dungeon of worries,pain and anger.All inexplicable thoughts would come to the person when he is struck by such a sudden bolt of scandals.The worst thoughts that would come to his his/her mind ,which may cause the victim to lose his goals,dashed his dreams and pushing him/herself towards the valley of guilt,death and despair.
I had once stood upon the valley,looking down at the immense darkness of the gorge, faintly seeing a fragment of those lost souls down there.They used to be like us,cheerful,bubbling with energy and excitement about life,however,with a huge obstacle slammed down in front of them when they are close to their finishing line and all hope was lost.Thus,I turned around and said to myself that i had to persistent,to keep improving myself and do more so that no matter how large the obstacles are in front of me,I would never give in and lower my head to it.
Secrets and Scandals are part and parcel of our everyday life.They caused much problems to many ,bringing them down.We must learn to fight against and manage when these obstacles come hurling towards us.NEVER EVER LET SECRETS AND SCANDALS BE A THREAT TO YOUR LIFE!!
You are my life
12:59 AM
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Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Since i am located at somewhere close to a turd now,I might as well write about turds today.So in your opinion,what are turds?Perhaps its that irritating neighbour next door who keeps staring at you,or that irritating freak who keeps asking for your number that you rejected a million times.
From the m-w,we know that a turd is a contemptible person or SHIT!I do know some turds personally since one is sitting beside me now.They are thoroughly irritable,paranoid and self-centered.They are crappy gays who hates people who miss out on appointments with them,however in actual fact they are the turds who cancel the appointments.How great are these guys man?I seriously wish that the great one up there would delete these people from his goody-goody system soon enough.
So turds as we know are incorrigible and inconspicuous personnels who are selfish and often tempted by the senses of food,sex,lust.Which man out there doesn't?Perhaps only me.This world that we are living in are plugged in with trends that changes so fast that not even superman could catch up at the rate it is changing.Thus this leads to constant temptations to own the best and only the best.We waste our time and enery on this materialistic tangible goods when we should be spending our time cultivating the intangible inner self.
The ever changing landscape brings about many temptations.However there are many in this world who had succeeded in succumbing them.Life is full of scandals and secrets,and no doubt ,they occupy part of my life too.Thus,by placing these people who has the inner-self of purity as our figureheads,as some sort of role model,turd heads like D**M**D L**can be removed from this world and evil would be of good riddance.
I HOPE THE FUTURE GENERATION WOULD NOT PRODUCE THIS TURDY PARASITES ANYMORE!!!
You are my life
3:40 PM
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Sunday, September 16, 2007
Hi people,was a bit emo in the last entry.So today was quite normal.Did my Nanyang Girls paper and managed to scored quite high for it.
Thts how boring life is today....
You are my life
12:52 AM
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Friday, September 14, 2007
Been quite a while since i last posted.Its the end of prelims,however this marks the beginning of the O's.I wonder if this is good or bad news.though Everyday did not worked out as planned today.Helped Desmond with Stace's Birthday present then we met her.We are like suppose to play soccer like tonight and the god damn Braddell-Heights built a tent over our court,god damn it man!!!i guess my day is totally ruined due to this shit.I have no moood to do anything,not even sleep.
So i guess someone up there must really hate me.After working so hard for 3 weeks and my only day of enjoyment is ruined by a stupid tent.Gonna really run myself into a wall or something to keep myself occupied.
I realised something though.My life is thoroughly controlled by my friends.If my friends quit over some stuff,i would blindly follow.i guess this is what really kills me slowly.I guessed i am so preoccupied with my friends that i hardly look at myself or my life.I hardly paid attention to how I was spending my time ,only caring about how to make the life of other's better.Man said "kindness begets kindness".But i doubt so.Which part of my life do i ever get something in return?Never in my life had this ever happened.Not even once.Do you think life is ever fair on this land.People are judged academically,so those who are born with smart brains are elites.What about the non-prodigies in the society.We worked so hard mugging day and night and all we received are grades that are incomparable to those of those people of higher calibre.Those who sow in tears will reap with shout of joy.Thats utter bullshit man.If mugging for 18 hours a day doesn't equal to anything much compared to the braniacs,I dunno what i should do sacrificing my time for 2-3.5 hours of sleep a day receiving inferior grades.That is totally demoralising.
I guess i would only live 5 more years in this society,as my health deteriorates day by day as i step towards the GCE O's.I guess my dream would be to be able to live in the valleys of the blue mountains.Nothing would trouble me over there.Life would be carefree.But how many of us could lead lives like that.With families to look after and loved ones to care about,a life like this is unthinkable,let alone the possibility of achieving this dream.
Its like 99.999999% suicidal tendency for me now.hope i don't do anything stupid before the o'levels.Guess i have to start mugging tonight since i have nothing to do.Bye PEOPLE!!!
You are my life
5:35 PM
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Thursday, September 06, 2007
Today is the most tiring day ever man.Slept at 4 am this morning,woke up at 6 came back and started playing a bit of yahoo pool then off to mugged.so far i m pretty confident for my amath.Its the history that worries me.
Hope all my hard work will pay off!!!off to sleep...
You are my life
11:26 PM
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Tuesday, September 04, 2007
It had been a hectic week for me as I shuffle in and out of my room.Stuck on my chair for the past week as my arse heated it up.Been through alot this week as math,science,humanities went through my head.Papers coming now and then as the prelims loomed above me.This ain't the time to slack man.I can feel a little bit burned out as the endless days and nights of studying takes its toll on me.
With increased stress levels,i think i am gonna lose it sooner or later.However life is like a play.There is bound to be ups and downs in this journey.There is bound to be troubles,worries,problems and times when u are in dilemma.But,think on the bright side,life ain't that bad after all.There are always two sides to an issue.
More exams are coming up the next two weeks.I guess i m probably more prepared for it compared to the SA1...
Hope that i seriously do well for this exams!!!
You are my life
12:04 AM
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