Monday, May 26, 2008
Journal at AB Camp
Friday, May 23rd
I left for AB Camp with dilemma.I don't know what I will be going through and how are the six days gonna pass.I did not want to go for the camp as I can never ever leave you.You are my shelter,my salvation.As you walk me to the school gate,my heart aches.I still cannot believe that you will be so far from me for the next six days.
I walk into the school feeling rather flabbergasted.As I approach the track to report,shouts filled my ears.That feeling of nostalgia hit me in the face as the thoughts of NCC flooded my head.The tone of the camp was so god damn regimental.As we rush here and there from workshop to workshop,I dread the days that are about to come.
I lay awoke that night,thinking about how much I love you.My love for you is as deep of that of a bottomless pit.Saturday, May 24th
Been dreaming of you all night.
Set off to the Labrador Adventure Centre.The morning was so dead.Shouts filled my ears early in the morning.
Started off with the rock wall.I thought it was rather difficult at first.But it was quite conquerable.
We moved on to the bouldering wall that really brought my group,Cheyenne, together :) We cheered each other on learning many valuable leadership lessons.
You flooded my mind once again.
My heart is in the north,my body is in the south.
Nothing can be done to ease the pain.
More activites and workshops continued as the ache in my heart piled on.
I WANNA SHOUT I LOVE YOU, BUT I CAN'T!
I sat at the corner thinking all about you.Tears rolled,emotions garnered.All I want is you.Sunday, May 25th
Woke up with an emptyness in my heart.That is the space for my emotions
I miss you so much that I can't feel the pain anymore.
Sandcastle building was in the morning,but all I had in my mind was you.
I stared out at the sea wondering how you are feeling today.
I miss your eyes,your smile,your touch so much that I would rather die than go through 5 more days without you.
Back to Labrador Adventure Centre for Outdoor Games.Thunder clouds approach.Torrential rain came.Our activities got cut.Moved to Indoor Games in the hall.
Cheyenne was tasked to build a highest possible straw tower that could balance a marble on the tip of it.This activity taught me to be contented with our goals.To not go for what is beyond our reach,keeping in mind other factors,not only with one goal.
Building foundation is important and not to let negative ideas to affect us.
Values workshop,SL planning,supper.
I sat there staring blankly at your picture,thinking about you and only you.You are all that I want,all that I need.I need you,I miss you,I love you.
Monday, May 26th
Severe pain filled my head.
Rain came again as our activities got cancelled.
Been vomiting for the past few days.Ain't feeling well.Went to report sick.
Seen a doctor.Got 3 days of MC.Left the camp 3 days early.
I wanna thank Sherry,Charlie and Tueston for taking our feedback seriously and for their support towards the Cheyenne campers and the Campers for helping out!
Alpha Bravo Camp Delta Experience,Cheyenne 08'
Awesome Aida
Cartoon Casuarine
Dynamic Daniel
Exciting Edwin
Happy Huidan
Jovial Janice
Kind Kerby
Kinder Khoon Liang
Loyal Louisa
Sexy Stephanie
Ticko Tick Meng
Wow Wenxiong
Xtreme Xuhao
Zesty Zhanglu
Zany Zhanyee
Catastrophic Charlie
Sexier Sherry
Terrific Tueston
You are my life
5:33 PM
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